Relationship Ownership

Happy New Year Everybody. Hope you are all enjoying the new year so far. Mine is full of weird thoughts and I am thinking of killing these idle moments and the resulting crazy opinions about this monster we call relationship. I am lucky to be one of the (dare I say few) guys who got a girlfriend and a steady one at that though I sometimes derail to sample other guys' women. It is all a circle. Of late I've been doing a lot of thinking on relationship, mine to be precise. The question that keeps coming to my mind is, can someone own a relationship? I don't believe that mine is a mutual understanding though it looks like one. When I do something that looks out of norm I get a mouthful of why I shouldn't have done this and that. If I don't call everynight I'm punished for it when we meet. She is the one who decides when to give head, when to get laid, when to go for a date, basically everything and no, she doesn't want me to move on. Does that mean that this is 'her' relationship and she can do anything that she pleases at my expense? I wonder if it is possible to change ownership of this relationship. Thank God we are not married. Everyone else looks at us and say how good we look as a couple. She acts good in public, she's the loving girlfriend, gives me all the attention (possesiveness) and all that. Now she's even talking marriage and I don't know how to get out of the trap. I am trying to figure out who needs who the most here. In case of argument, I always seem to be the one on the wrong and apologise for her mistakes.New Year resolution is to change ownership of this relationship. I'm ready to fall back in the singles category and start making excuses like this because I think she's faking this relationship by being there coz she thinks I can't be with anyone else. It is better to exit early rather than wait for her to throw me out, giving me the famous, "it's not you, it's me" line. Looking forward to owning a relationship of my own this year or better still, co-owning a relationship. Enough said.